I have the best boyfriend in the world! Yes I do. =D So next week is my birthday but I got my b-day gift early. It was a hot day yesterday and in the morning my bub told me, "I don't feel like cooking let's go out to eat" and I agreed cooking would of made the house too hot so out to eat we would go. The day itself was rather ho hum nothing special. It was hot and we didn't do much. Except we did do our major workout in the middle of the day while it was like a billion degrees inside and out. Omg I thought I was going to die! That was a really stupid idea. Anyway around comes dinner time and my bub is rushing me then not rushing me. He's like no hurry then he's like hurry up I'm hungry. Ahh good grief! So we get there and he takes me off to the side and there is a surprise waiting for me. It's my friends! I was so shocked, I really wasn't expecting that at all. They told me he had been planning this for like a month in advance. Aww I was so happy. We got dinner and bowling on him. He didn't stay with us because he said it was just for us. He paid for everything and he wasn't even there. He was so sweet! I just couldn't believe he managed to get them all together. So we sat down and had dinner, talked, laughed all the good stuff. After dinner we had some time to kill so we went to Old Navy and looked around. I saw a shirt I thought I liked till I tried it on then it wasn't as cute, Haha. I did get some socks though because I wasn't wearing any and needed them for bowling. Actually Kitty ended up getting them. I don't even know if I said thank you. Uh oh. After that we went to the bowling place. Already paid for we just had to get some shoes and play.Our first game everyone was doing pretty good, I bowled a 123 I think. That is really high for me! I can barely even get close to 100 normally. The second game everyone scores for the most part dropped a lot. We were getting tired and wrists were starting to hurt. It doesn't matter though. I just had an awesome time hanging out with my girls. I just smile just thinking about it. My bub is the best. He planned it all and got everything together and just made me have an awesome day! I love him so much! Thanks to my friends for being so awesome too and coming down and also for making me have such an awesome day! I love them too! I love everybody, =D
Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music:Josh Groban, "When You Say You love Me"
Oh poor journal, it's been almost another year since I've lasted updated you. I said I wouldn't hold my breath about updating even remotely often good thing because that's a long breath to hold! Again I'm here and yet I have no idea what I should write about? A whole years worth of stuff? Random crap that has been going on recently? I dunno. So I suppose I won't write about anything. YaY! =D
30 Seconds To Mars, "The Kill"
What if I wanted to break Laugh it all off in your face What would you do? (Oh, oh) What if I fell to the floor Couldn't take all this anymore What would you do, do, do?
Come break me down Bury me, bury me I am finished with you
What if I wanted to fight Beg for the rest of my life What would you do? You say you wanted more What are you waiting for? I'm not running from you (from you)
Come break me down Bury me, bury me I am finished with you Look in my eyes You're killing me, killing me All I wanted was you
I tried to be someone else But nothing seemed to change I know now, this is who I really am inside. Finally found myself Fighting for a chance. I know now, this is who I really am.
Ah, ah Oh, oh Ah, ah
Come break me down Bury me, bury me I am finished with you, you, you. Look in my eyes You're killing me, killing me All I wanted was you
Come break me down (bury me, bury me) Break me down (bury me, bury me) Break me down (bury me, bury me)
(You say you wanted more) What if I wanted to break...? (What are you waiting for?) Bury me, bury me (I'm not running from you) What if I What if I What if I What if I Bury me, bury me
Current Mood: blank Current Music:30 Seconds to Mars "The Kill"
Ho Hum It's Monday and a blah sorta day. I'm suppose to be sorting boxes and I am kinda. Between long breaks and getting sidetracked by whats inside the boxes. Moving sucks so much, I'm glad the hard part is done. I wonder if thats true even, finding places to put stuff and getting rid of stuff is pretty hard in it's own right. Well at least the heavy moving of stuff is done. I live right next to a middle school now it's not as noisy as I thought it would of been so it's ok. It must be PE time cause the kids are outside playing. I like it, I like the sound of the kids laughing and screaming with joy. Ugh it's hard to let stuff go, even though I'm like I know I have no use for this and no where to put it it's still hard to see it go. I'm trying to save as much as possible to at least donate. When we first started moving we had to let go of some good stuff we didn't have time to go donate it. I felt really bad because there wasn't anything wrong with it we were in too much of a time crunch. Now I'm piling up as much as I can to donate. Speaking of donating I've been really want to do like some community charity work. I don't really know how to go about doing those things though. I enjoyed it a lot when I did it in HS. Now that I can drive and get around by myself (sorta) I've been wanting to do something. With this new move I feel I really need to pick up a second job too. Our rent is more and we just have more stuff to pay for and work is slowing down a bit. I'm wondering what kind of job I could get that would let me only work certain days. I don't really plan on leaving my job unless I get fired. I work Tues, Weds, Thurs for sure. I work two Saturdays a month and well we use to work on Mondays but recently we have been having them off. So thats leaves me some Mondays, Fridays and some Saturdays, and Sunday. I suppose I could work nights after I get off from my other job but thats not usually till around 6ish. It just has to be something for a little more money in the pocket. Uh goodness anyway I think I've taken a long enough break for now. I should probably get back to those boxes.
If your life was a movie, what would the soundtrack be?
So, here's how it works: 1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, etc). 2. Put it on shuffle. 3. Press Play. 4. For every question, type the name of the song that's playing. 5. When you get to a new question, press Next. 6. Do not skip songs.
Opening Credits: Fight Tune from Dirge of Cerberus "Girl Named Shelke"
Waking Up: REM, "Daysleeper"
First Day at School: The Calling, "Stigmatized"
Breaking Up: Linkin Park, "Don't Stay"
Happiness: Lifehouse, "Come Back Down"
Life's Okay: Savage Garden, "California"
Mental Breakdown: REM, "The Lifting"
Driving: Aerosmith w/ RUN Dmc, "Walk This Way"
Flashback: Savage Garden, "So beautiful"
Getting Back Together: Red Hot Chili Peppers, "Snow(Hey Oh)"
Wedding: Foo Fighters, "Hell"
Birth of a Child: Mariah Carey ft ODB, "Fantasy"
Final Battle: Josh Groban, "To Where You Are"
Funeral Song: Kelly Clarkson, "Some Kind Of Miracle"
End Credits: The Eagles, "Life In The Fast Lane" ---------------------------------------------------- Simple directions: use the shuffle function on your music player and see what you come up with in answer to the following questions.
How does the world see you? Foo Fighters, "Friend Of a Friend"
Will I have a happy life? Aerosmith, "Draw The Line"
What do my friends really think of me? The Ataris, "Take Me Back"
Do people secretly lust after me? The Calling, "Wherever You Will Go"
How can I make myself happy? Franz Ferdinand, "Elanor Put Your Boots On"
What should I do with my life? Naruto OST, "Little By Little"
Will I ever have children? Tha Ataris, "Neilhouse"
What is some good advice for me? Kelly Clarkson, "Just Missed The Train"
How will I be remembered? Gorillaz, "Left Hand Suzuki Method"
What is my signature dancing song? Gorillaz, "Tomorrow Comes Today"
What do I think my current theme song is? Kelly Clarkson, "Walk Away"
What does everyone else think my current theme song is? Santana ft Kirk Hammett of Metallica, "Trinity"
What song will play at my funeral? Fall Out Boy, "Sugar We're Going Down"
What type of men/women do you like? Matchbox Twenty, "Angry"
What is my day going to be like? Aerosmith, "Back In The Saddle"
Lmao ok so some of those were really funny. That was a fun way to kill a few minutes. Now your turn.
Current Mood: lazy Current Music:3 Doors Down, "Loser"
WOW! its been awhile hasn't it? I always say that though. But only because it's true! Hey how you doing? Me I'm good, pretty great actually. So what has gone on since I last wrote in here? Well last time was in Aug. Um in Sept it was my birthday, woo woo. Wow thats really old news. Uh what else? Well I finally finally got a new job!! Omg you don't know how happy I am. It's amazing. I finally feel like I dunno like myself again. My parents especially like have been you sound so much happier and relaxed. Just from talking to me on the phone. It's because I am. I have real hours, no insane staying there till 7:30 at night shit. I work on Mondays 9-3 straight through Tue- Thurs 9-5:30 with an hour lunch and I work some Sats 8-3. It's closer and there is another assistant there. I work hard there and I come home tired but it's nothing like what I use to do. The Dr and assistant are so nice too, and we laugh and joke and talk. I don't come home pissed off anymore. I really really needed this. I am never looking back again. I'm just mad I wasted 2 years at that other place, it was horrible. I don't think I hated anything quite as much as I hated being there. Oh gosh. Anyway thats the real major news. So what else have I been up to? Honestly not a lot really. My bub and I have been addicted to playing Halo on Live. It's a lot of fun! I've gotten pretty good too. =D Yeah well thats pretty much life right now, work and Halo. Haha, I am such a loser. It's ok really. I can't really think of anything else. So I guess thats my update. Till I decide to do it again.
"You were so blind to let me go You had it all but did not know No one you'll find will ever be Closer to all your dreams than me Believing the grass would be greener You told yourself "I just don't need her now" But I know you'll soon discover You're never satisfied with any other
[Chorus:] Someday oo someday One you gave away will be the only one you're wishing for Someday hey hey Boy you're gonna pay 'cause baby I'm the one who's keeping score
You'll change your mind and call my name Soon as you find they're all the same And when you find yourself alone Don't come back crying You should have known Believe me I'm not pretending It's not hard to predict this ending now 'Cause I know you'll soon discover You're needing me in spite of all the others
[Chorus]
Maybe now you just can't conceive That there'll ever come a time When you're cold and lonely Baby how could you ever believe That another could replace me The one and only But when you're down In your time of need And you're thinking That you might be coming back to own me Just think again 'Cause I won't need your love anymore
[Chorus]"
Current Mood: cheerful Current Music:Mariah Carey "Someday"
I've been doing a lot of thinking lately, whoa scary I know. I mean serious thinking too. I am unhappy with where I am at in my life. I'm 22 going on 23 next month. I dunno I just don't feel like I'm doing what I want to. I seriously hate my job. I'm not even making money I'm just refilling my account to back to what it was. I know I have to get either a job that is more stable and pays more or I really have to take on a second part time job. I don't drive yet though and I have been practicing but lord I am awful. I just feel stuck. I'm really bummed out. Uhh blah. I had more to say but I kinda forgot. Oh well :
Not cute really. Here are a few pics the day after my surgery. Not at all as bad as I thought. To me it doesn't seem swollen. I can't tell and these pics you cant either if my eye is blackening up or if I'm just tired. It doesn't hurt today, which is a really good thing. Yesterday it hurt to blink. The surgery itself also was not as bad as what I was expecting. They numbed me up a lot. My bub was saying cause I also had this thing on my nose which they took off, but anyway that while they were numbing my face the thing on my nose was bleeding. The only thing that was probably bad about the whole thing is when she had to use this laser(i guess i dont know what it was really) and it smelled like burning flesh. Since it was on my face near my nose I could smell it up close and personal. It was gross. When they stitched me up was kinda weird. I could feel them tugging and pulling but it didn't hurt. Didn't do anything yesterday was order to take it easy. I mostly napped on and off for the rest of the day. Kinda wondering what it's going to look like under these bandages if it's bruised or not. I have to change them today but I want to wait till my bub is home. Anyway not much else to report on so on to pics and thats it till next time!
up close
So happy
Sorry for looking like that it's kinda hard to look cute. The Dr said also my scar shouldn't be too bad and that it will probably lighten up and not be to noticeable. She did say though it was kinda curved cause she couldn't make it straight. I dunno and my bub had it sounding like it was this huge ole thing so Im kinda like ahhh we'll see. Anyway thats it this time for real.
" I wait in the darkness. Frozen winds surround my face. In the cover of darkness I can make believe it's you. I feel you like the rain, I feel you like a storm cloud building in my heart. I wonder if you know the pain, to want the one thing you haven't got. Just a twist in time ...and you could be mine Just a sip of wine ...and you could be mine Just a kiss divine
A hand brushes by my love. A smile fuels a steel inferno You don't have to die to leave my world. Stand still and you've departed. It seems I'm not on your mind and I'm just wasting my time.
I'm just a fool to believe. In the death of the night can you feel me inside? I wish that you could conceive..
Just a twist in time ...and you could be mine Just a sip of wine ...and you cloud be mine Just a kiss divine ...and you could be mine
Won't you leave me in the darkness. Take away the pride, all the dignity that's burning inside. Can't you see I'm standing naked. I'll bear all the crosses and the crucifixes you can provide. If you could decide.
Just a twist in time ...and you could be mine Just a sip of wine ...and you could be mine Just a kiss divine ...and you could be mine"
Current Mood: drained Current Music:Savage Garden "Mine"
rant about work and my face. First off let me just say this, I hate work. Again I just got worked like a freaking dog. The last six days that I worked I didn't even leave the office any earlier than 7. Usually it was around 7:30 that I left. My day usually starts 8:30 or 9, kinda whenever I decide to stroll in. But anyway, why is it ok to be making me work insanely like that? Oh yeah then this is nice to. We got some noob who came in last week. She doesn't even really understand English so when I tell her things she does them wrong and I have to spend my time telling her again and fixing what she did. I don't mind explaining things but I don't want to have to spend my time doing these things over again. Also she only works 2 days a week, and yesterday she didn't even come in until 10:30 and she was suppose to be there at 9. Oh no so she was there at 10:30 we went to lunch at 12-1 then she dared leave at 3:45. While I was there till 7:30 again, I was like WTF?! You do know that you can't just come and go whenever you want right? No of course not, good god I was mad. I don't think she will be staying very long. The Dr was like well I'll give her 1 more week and then after that no more. I think he's just saying that so he will have someone on that 1 day that I'm gone. Which so happens to bring me to my next thing. So as you all probably already know because I said, I have a type of skin cancer. It's not going to kill me, woo but you know it's weird. Even though it's not going to kill me it is still a type of cancer. It's a strange thing to have to think of. Anyway I have an appointment next Wednesday to have this taken care of. I can hardly wait till this is taken care of. I was talking with the lady who called me and I was asking her some different things. I asked her if she knew about how long it'd take and she was like, "Oh people usually leave here around 1 or 3" My appointment is at 8:50 am haha. No she said is because they have to take a piece then they have to test it and the testing part takes an hour. Then if there is still more they have to do it over again until it's gone. I also learned that it wont be as expensive as I thought but it is still a lot for me. It'll be $1500 and that she said was almost 50% off. Thats what she said if its true or not is something else. That is still a lot though. It's going to put me in a uncomfortable spot money wise. I just had a whole bunch of bills and whatnot to pay already. Uhh life sucks like this sometimes. But anyway my little rant is over now.
"I feel my wings have broken in your hands I feel the words unspoken inside
When they pull you under And I would give you anything you want Well all I wanted All my dreams have fallen down Crawling around somebody save me And two warm hands break right through me Somebody save me I don't care how you do it Just stay Stay Come on I've been waiting for you
I see the world has folded in your heart I feel the waves crash down inside
And they pull me under I would give you anything you want Well all I wanted And all my dreams have fallen down Crawling around somebody save me And two warm hands break right through me Somebody save me I don't care how you do it Just stay Stay Come on I've been waiting for you
And all my dreams are on the ground
Crawling around somebody save me And two warm hands break right through me Somebody save me I don't care how you do it Just save me
I've made this whole world shine for you Just stay Stay Come on I'm still waiting for you"
Current Mood: grumpy Current Music:Remy Zero "Save Me"
Oh my god, I am freaking stressing out here. We are being hit with a huge load of money issues all at once. We got all our bills due plus rent and all that. That usually ends up about 600 or more depending, just for my half. Then I have my own personal bills to deal with. I got a credit card bill for a little over 550 dollars. I don't even know when the next time I owe my parents money. I could already for all I know and thats another 80 bucks. Unless it's late then it'll be more. We have to pay for Christian's school tuition and thats another grand or so. Then I may possibly have to deal with this Dr thing which lord know how much that's going to cost. Good grief since I still don't even know if it is something or not. It's been over a week stupid test results!! I haven't been able to think of much else since then. Life is very stressful right now. I just want to scream or something. I don't think we have been the bombarded with money things like this before so it's hella like omg what the F am I going to do? My boss is a cheap bastard and we only get paid at the end of the month. That really doesn't help when ya kinda need money yanno now. Ah jeez, life sucks balls at times like this. I mean i'm sure we'll be fine, I don't think we're going to go homeless from this but it still is very stressful and makes me worry. :(
" You sit there in your heartache Waiting on some beautiful boy to To save you from your old ways You play forgiveness Watch it now Here he comes
He doesnt look a thing like Jesus But he talks like a gentleman Like you imagined When you were young
Can we climb this mountain I dont know Higher now than ever before I know we can make it if we take it slow Let's take it easy Easy now Watch it go
We're burning down the highway skyline On the back of a hurricane That started turning When you were young When you were young
And sometimes you close your eyes And see the place where you used to live When you were young
They say the devil's water It ain't so sweet You don't have to drink right now But you can dip your feet Every once in a little while
You sit there in your heartache Waiting on some beautiful boy to To save you from your old ways You play forgiveness Watch it now Here he comes
He doesn't look a thing like Jesus But he talks like a gentleman Like you imagined When you were young (talks like a gentleman) (like you imagined) When you were young
I said he doesn't look a thing like Jesus He doesn't look a thing like Jesus But more than you'll ever know
Current Mood: stressed Current Music:The Killers "When You Were Young"
pics from Six Flags Discovery Kingdom But because I am feeling hella lazy you got to clicky yourself wait maybe not let's try something. Ok didnt work so back to the first idea. =D
I am back from my trip to New Mexico. The week went by so fast but the days seemed so long, it was kinda weird. We were so busy the whole time we were there, which is good. I might after this just make a separate thing for pics. Let's see we left last Saturday. Besides getting a little lost in SFO everything else was a-ok. Our flight wasn't even till 8:30 so we had some time to kill. We just sat around and did nothing really. Um once it was time to board everything was smooth. Our flight going there we had a little bit of turbulence nothing bad though. It was really cool because as we were leaving we went through the clouds and then we were like over them and you look out and it's just a sea of clouds. Not much else to look at since it was night time. A lot of time it seemed like it was just a black never ending sea of nothingness. That was kinda cool too. We passed over one area where it was just a whole bunch of lights. Our whole flight was like a little over two hours. Maybe two and a half but I don't think it was that long. Finally we were in New Mexico around 11:54 pm. My parents are of course there waiting for us and it's all happy time getting to see them after so long. We go back to their place, the drive isn't that long only about 30 mins. Once we get there they show us to our room and then we get a tour of the house, and let me tell you it's nice. We talk for a while since there isn't much else to do since it's so late. We go to bed around 1:30 and we wake fairly I think. We eat and we get ready to go for a walk my mom wants me to see the bunnies. It's kinda late for them though so we don't know if we will see any but try we do anyway. Bunnies we saw a lot of them I think we saw 12 on our walk. OMG they are soo cute!! Both my mom and dad were surprised by the amount we saw, they said they never see that many. We also saw a some lizards and I think a couple of squirrels. Our first day there ok I got mixed up was me and mom day. My mom and I went out shopping we went to try and find something to go with my shoes. It was nothing nothing nothing till the very last store we went to. Then we found something. We didn't do much after that we came home got in my moms little blow up pool for awhile, Then she took us to Target so we could buy some shorts and stuff. Then we go home and wait for dinner, my dad it bbq teriyaki steaks tonight! Omg my dad is the freaking best at bbq hands down. The rest of the night is chill and relax. Ok for some reason I'm getting confused on what we did what day so uh yeah I guess it doesnt matter really I'll just tell you about each whatever order I can remember them in. Second day it's a combo day cuz we are going to an aquarium and the botanical gardens then the zoo. The aquarium is kinda small so it doesn't take too long but it was cool. We got to see rays getting fed. That was nifty. They had a shark tank there too, ooo cool! Oh gosh they had a puffer fish and it was so cute I cant even tell you.It was really big too and it almost looked like he was smiling it was so cute. After that we go to the gardens and it's cool. Then thing I remember most about that was they have this area where you can go in and there are butterflies just freaking everywhere. All different kinds too which is neat. I don't think we stayed here very long either because I was excited to go to the zoo! I love going to the zoo I love seeing animals. It's a pretty big zoo so I'm loving it. They got of course all kinds of animals and such. It actually started to rain while we were there. Weird since yesterday was so freaking hot. For dinner my mom baked chicken and we had rice and asparagus with it. Yum yum also. Ok then next day we go to this place called the Jackalope. It's this neat little place with cool stuff to look at. A sorta tourist place but it's cool. My mom and I have a bit fun in there you'll see the picture. After visiting there we are going to go to a casino. I've never been to one before so this will be fun. My dad tells us what you do is before you go you set yourself an amount of how much your going to play and when your done thats it. Go in with the idea of having fun and not trying to win. He gives us both 10 bucks and says whatever else we want to comes from our own pocket. I only grab a twenty so I'll be playing on only 30 dollars. My parents say they like to play on the penny slots so thats where we go too. I basically have no idea what I'm doing and I'm losing left and right. Aw man this sucks! My bub found a machine and he's doing really good on it! He's winning a lot of times. They allow smoking in there so at one point my mom and I have to go outside to just breathe. My mom tells me she's already won like 85 dollars or something and I've already gone through the 10 my dad gave me. We go and play on machines next to each other they are both Zorro but they are a little different. I lose and lose and my mom was like, "Yay I won 80 dollars" then she looks at it and was like, "Oh never mind I only won just 60" I'm like grr what ONLY 60 shut up. I go off to find my bub whose winning streak dwindled. I tell him to go pick out a machine for me since he was so good. He puts me on one and I'm doing good then he goes to play on the one he was earlier and I start doing really bad. I was like, "BuB come here I'm losing!" Once he comes over I start doing really good again. Like I had no idea what was going on. I had to pick a crab icon then I had to pick 4 bobbing things and then they turn to barrels and the guy starts pulling lobsters out of them and they are different sizes and worth different amounts and I'm winning. I ended up winning $126. After that I was like OMG I'm done, hurry cash out cash out!! My mom and I were the the big winners but we all came out with casino money, woohoo! That night we went out to Applebee's for dinner. I think the next day we went for a really long walk at this place my parents call the Dam. It was quite a walk we walked all together about 4 miles. We saw lots of cool things there too, more bunnies, baby jack rabbits, quail and chipmunks. I think that was all we did that day because well it was a lot! My dad bbq'd ribs that night, mmm mmm! Next day we go to a place called "Old Town" it's another touristy place and it's cool but it's just a lot of the same really. It's a bunch of shops. We did go the the rattlesnake museum though and that was really cool. They had all kinds of snakes in there. Eee some of them were really creepy. After that we go to another actual museum and it's way cool. They have this T-rex skeleton and his name is Stan. Actually I think it's a model of the real skeleton but either way it's huge and it's so cool to see. I had a little fun with Stan, you'll see. They also had other dinosaur fossils there too. Lots and lots of cool things to see. Hmm I dunno I don't think this is the right order again oh well! Like I said whatever oder I can remember since we did so much! haha The 14th was me and my bub's 6 year anniversary. My parents took us out to a very nice Italian place, "The Pasta House" I believe. I don't for whatever reason remember what it was we did on that day. One of those things maybe or it might of been the day we went to the Rio Grande river. The Rio Grande was a sight to see too. We also saw these Indian I guess ruins. Got some pics of that too. We got to go down into this place where they use to hold like religious things. No pics were allowed down there. Then we went down to the Rio Grande. We saw a couple of big frogs there and some baby frogs which were so tiny and cute! My mom and I saw a snake it was red and big and it moved really fast. On the way home my dad spotted a snake just chilling on the side of the road. He was pretty big too and my bub took a pic of him. He then went under the car! Uh oh don't squish him but we managed not to, thankfully. I think we cooked that night. Made some porkchops and rice with green beans. On our last full day there we went up to the Sandia Mountains. It was so high up but the view was just amazing! We didn't do any major hiking or anything we just went far enough to see the scenery. After that we went to this place called Tinkertown and it's really cool place. I don't know quite how to describe it. Miniature wood carvings and such, I think it's just something you have to see for yourself. I had a lot of fun there too. It was a sad day though because I knew it was our last day there. We had to leave very early in the morning. I had a lot of fun, it was so great to see my parents again. It was cool to see a lot of the sights. Oh I didn't tell you, my mom had a bunny living in her back yard. Yeah we saw him almost everyday, he was so small I think he was a baby. We named him BB I got a pic of him so you can see. So cute!!! I miss being there already and I hope it isn't too long before we can visit again. I am not looking forward to going back to work tomorrow, although I am lucky everyone else had to go back today. Still it's going to suck a lot I just know it. Well I think I did a lot of babbling it's not in a whole lot of detail but if I did that it'd be even longer and I think it's going on pretty long now. So I will post pictures up either later or sometime soon. I'm still uploading them, we took a lot of them.
"Naita-tte Nani mo kawaranai-tte iwareru kedo Dare datte Son'na tsumori de naku n ja nai yo ne Nayanda-tte shikatta nai yo I just can't control the time Kono nagai Runway kara aozora e Take off! *Time will tell jikan ga tateba wakaru Cry dakara son'na aseranakuta-tte ii Time will tell jikan ga tateba wakaru Cry ashita e no zurui chikamichi wa nai yo Kitto kitto kitto Ame datte Kumo no ue e tobidaseba Always blue sky Taiyou datte Te de tsukameru gurai chikaku ni kanjirareru Hitori de ochikomanaide We just can't control the time Kono nagai Runway kara aozora e Take off! Time will tell jikan ga tateba wakaru Cry ima no iiwake ja jibun-sae gomakasenai Time will tell jikan ga tateba wakaru Cry dakara ima wa nakitai dake naite ii
Motto motto motto * repeat Time will tell So don't you worry (Time will tell, take your time, take it easy) I just hope you understand Make it nice & easy Time will tell (Time will tell, take your time, make it easy) Ame ni makenai Blue skies above us, above us Only time will tell Time will tell..."
Current Mood: cheerful Current Music:Utada Hikaru "Time Will Tell"
Wow an actual update. I'm still here I promise! Work kicked my ass last week, no lie. It was so busy and by the time I got home nothing sounded better than sleep. Crazy I hate it. Hm what else? Oh Last weekend I went to San Jose and we celebrated a friend's birthday. It was a lot of fun, we went and got facials and then later at 10:30 pm we went and watched Pirates. Eee it was so good! I not only heart Johnny but Jack Sparrow too, hehe. Then Sunday we went out shopping. I bought these shoes I don't have *anything* to wear with them but they were way too cute not to buy! I went shopping by myself to see if I could find something to go with it but I havent decided yet. I realized that shopping by yourself sucks and is to me somewhat depressing. I don't know if more polka dots would be too much or not. I need to wear the shoes when I go shopping I think that'd be the easiest way to tell. I also bought a dress I'd show you but the picture wont work so you'll have to wait till I have one. What else what else? Well by this time next week I will be in New Mexico. Yay I am very excited to go see my parents!! I'm also very excited not to have to go to work for like 10 days. I know it's bad because we do need the money but uh I hate that place. I see that the Dr is looking to hire someone, the ad says part/full time. Makes me wonder a little. Well I'd love to have some actual help around there for real. Good luck to him trying to find someone to stay too. Not everyone is a pushover like me. Well not much else to write in about just wanted to make myself known again. Don't forget about me!! Well hopefully work is a little less stressful this week and I'll be around again soon. Ok well till next time!
Uh uh uh uh uh uh uh oh Uh uh uh uh uh uh uh oh Check it out Going out On the late night Looking tight Feeling nice It's a cock fight I can tell I just know That it's going down Tonight At the door we don't wait cause we know them At the bar six shots just beginning That's when dick head put his hands on me But you see
I'm not here for your entertainment You don't really want to mess with me tonight Just stop and take a second I was fine before you walked into my life Cause you know it's over Before it began Keep your drink just give me the money It's just you and your hand tonight
Uh uh uh uh uh uh uh oh Uh uh uh uh uh uh uh oh
Midnight I'm drunk I don't give a fuck Wanna dance By myself Guess you're outta luck Don't touch Back up I'm not the one Buh bye Listen up it's just not happening You can say what you want to your boyfriends Just let me have my fun tonight Aiight
I'm not here for your entertainment You don't really want to mess with me tonight Just stop and take a second I was fine before you walked into my life Cause you know it's over Before it began Keep your drink just give me the money It's just you and your hand tonight
Uh uh uh uh uh uh uh oh Break break Break it down
In the corner with your boys you bet 'em five bucks You'd get the girl that just walked in but she thinks you suck We didn't get all dressed up just for you to see So quit spilling your drinks on me yeah
You know who you are High fivin, talking shit, but you're going home alone arentcha?
Cause I'm not here for your entertainment No You don't really want to mess with me tonight Just stop and take a second Just stop and take a second I was fine before you walked into my life Cause you know it's over Know it's over Before it began Keep your drink just give me the money It's just you and your hand tonight It's just you and your hand
I'm not here for your entertainment No no no You don't really want to mess with me tonight Just stop and take a second Just take a second I was fine before you walked into my life Cause you know it's over Before it began Keep your drink just give me the money It's just you and your hand tonight Yeah oh
Josh Groban concert First off let me say I LOVE JOSH GROBAN! Gawd, I really do. He's just so wow. I had so much fun last night!! I got to leave work at 3 and my bf was nice enough to come pick me up. I got home and had to get ready fast I had to leave before 5. I was going to meet my bestfriend at the arena, I was taking the train. Once we meet up we are starving so we go to look for somewhere to eat. Her uncle's restaurant is close so we go there. The food there was so yummy and filling! I think I over ate just a little. So after our tummys are full we head back it's like 7 at this time. We get into the arena without any real trouble. She brought her camera with her though they weren't allowed but they didnt even check.I got mixed up I thought for some reason we had floor seats but we didnt. Ok the thing is we had good seats but damn we were on the wrong side for freaking everything. I'll explain later. Uh the show started at 8 he had a woman opening for him. I honestly can not remember her name. She was from west Africa I believe. She was good,and boy could she move! She promised us next time she came out she would show us the moves she's been showing Josh. She only performed for half an hour, then we had to wait for another whole freaking half and hour for Josh to finally take the stage. But soon it was time, the lights go off and you know he's coming. They have a big curtain up blocking the view of the full stage but you hear him start to sing. He opens with his first single off his new cd, "You Are Loved(don't give up). I turn over to look at Catt and I'm just like "uh does he know we can't see him?" Then the curtains open and he comes up out of the ground singing. Oh it was wonderful just to see him finally. I believe the next song he sang was, "Mai". A very beautiful song it is. He sang also, "L'Ultima Notte" He talks some,welcoming us saying how happy is he. He told us his dad graduated from SJSU! Oh jeez what else? There was so much, it was incredible! There were little side parts to the stage where he could go and be closer to the people. Of course we werent anywhere near it! I know he also sang "So She Dances" and then he told this cute hella funny story about what he thought of when he heard it. He's so dorky and oh lord I love it. I cant help it I heart nerds so bad! Catt and I were laughing so hard. He sang "Now Or Never" as well. At one point he let the woman who plays the violin have a solo. Her name is Lucia Micarelli and good lord she can play. She did "Kashmir" (by Led Zeppelin) on her violin. She looked a little angry playing but I think she was just concentrating. We were wondering how her hair didnt get caught cause she was going at it. The last time I saw Josh she was there too and she played, "Bohemian Rhapsody" So she was very impressive. After she was done and this is the saddest part. They start playing the music and it's my favorite song off his new cd. It's called, "In Her Eyes" Then they shine a spotlight on the crowd and Josh is in the crowd. Like he's not even on the floor he's up in the stands like where we were sitting ONLY ON THE OTHER SIDE! When I saw him I was just like, "Oh shit!" If he had come down on our side he would of been right there like we could of touched him. I was so sad! I was like oh on my favorite song too, that hurts!! He walks down and he's singing then he goes down to the main floor and makes his way back through the crowd up to the stage. I couldnt freaking believe it. I have some lousy luck. The lady came out and they sang together but you know I dont know what the song was called. But like she promised she was teaching Josh to dance and it had to be one of the cutest things I have ever seen. Then he went off on this little I dont know and he was a Raver. He was like "Where's the glowsticks, get em out" and he was pretending he was a raver. Ah yes he knows SJ. Hm what else, what else. Not all of this is in order mind you. Oh he did the really cool thing, he had thing where itmakes your voice like a lot of times. Basically so it sounded like there were multipule of him singing. Then he sang "Lullaby" it was really cool it sounded awesome! He played piano while he sang his new single "February Song". AWW. He took time to show a few websites and talked about his trip to Africa and how he met Nelson Mandela. He has a chairty to help children also Mandela appointed Groban as an Official Ambassador for Mandela's Project 46664, a campaign to help raise Global awareness of HIV/AIDS in Africa. He then sang "Weeping" a pop song originally composed in South Africa, is thematically oriented with the country's history of Apartheid. Thanks wiki for the little info. What other songs did he do. He sang "Remember When It Rained" I love that one. He sang a song from a musical uh damn I dont remember what it was called either. He was telling us about it, some guy kills people and his wife makes them into meat pies or something. Haha yeah the song was very pretty though. He sat at the edge of the stage and they had like a handful of people standind there while he sang. Damn I got cheated again! The last song he sang before he came out again was, "Machine" He said thank-you introduced everyone and left. He came back though. When he did he I know he sang for sure "Canto Alla Vita" Maybe it was during the main show he sang "Alejate" maybe he didnt but Im pretty sure he did at one point during the night. He ended the night with "You Raise Me Up" choir and all. Oh I had so much fun, he is so amazing. He sings like nobody else, and he's cute and funny and dorky and just all around wonderful. He's great to see in person. I wish we could of found a way to meet him, oh well. I'm so glad I brought Catt, going to concerts it's one of our things. Just something we do together and nobody else would of had as much fun as we did. Not even my bf. Im so glad she went with me and a big thanks to her for providing all the extras like food and such. I love going to concerts epecially when they're so good like that. Next time though I'm shelling out the big bucks for really good seats! These were $75 each so not bad really. I think Josh is worth it, hehe. I dont know what else to say really it was just great! Ok well I guess thats it for now, till next time! Oh sweet it looks like it's working. That is Josh's video for "You Are Loved(don't give up)
Video Games Live My blog has finally come. I would of done it yesterday, but I decided to play Zelda instead. =D You can't blame me for that! So Friday was the day. I went to work as normal but I left at 3 which was so nice. My boyfriend also got off at that time and we went home together. He said he wanted to leave at 4:30ish so that gave me a little more than an hour to get ready. So I hop in the shower and do my thing, get out fix my hair do my makeup. We leave a little before 4:30, we're not going to drive to the city. No we're taking Bart and then walking hella far, and up this huge steep hill. Joy. Um once we're off of Bart we stop to eat really quick then we make the journey upwards. Then when we get up we're not done walking yet. Then we have to walk 2 maybe 3 blocks more to the actual place. We get there at like 6:15. Not a whole lot is going on, they have some prestuff going on. A Guitar Hero tournament I guess, they gave a prize out later for the highest score. They did that as well with Space Invaders. They were selling very little actually and hardly any of it wasnt something you could just get at Hot Topic. I forget when but a mascot of Sonic came out and we took a few pictures with him. Sadly those are the only oictures of the whole damned thing. Lame. So we kinda flitter about just waiting to be let inside for the show. Once people start lining up we join and stand and wait. Finally the gates are opened and we can go inside. We have floor seats and we get to go in the doors closest to us, sweet. We get help finding our seats and we sit. We are Section 2 Row R seats 20&22. I have an isle seat. The seats were so small and so close and very low to the ground. The was the only major thing. We had really good seats, if we had been over a little more we probably would of had like the best seats. We were in the middle section where the stage was thats why. The lights dim and it the cue that the show is about to start. They start off with a tribute to the classics, they start off with Pong. They have a live orchestra playing the music to the games. It's really something very awesome to see. My favorite from the classics was Ghost and Goblins. I'm way better at the game than my bf thats probably why, hehe. Then after that Tommy Tallarico came out and introduced the conductor, Jack Wall. Talked a little bit. You know there was so much I cant remember which order everything went in. I know at one time they had someone come on stage and he had to play Space Invaders. While he played the orchestra played live with him, changing depending on how he played. Also he had to play by literally moving back and forth on the stage, he became the ship. It was really very cool. Um what else, sorry this isnt exacly in order like I said. I know they showed a video of Mr. Hideo Kojima of him introducing the music of Metal Gear Solid. It was really cute, they had a guy dressed up as a gaurd and he was just walking back and forth. Then you see this cardboard box and it's moving around, stopping when the gaurd looks. At one point the guy pulls on a string and he gets an ! over his head, he's on extra alert. He just keeps walking back and forth and he has the ! for a while like in the game. Then he pulls the string and and it goes back down, he passes the box looks at it and shrugs and walks off. The box just remains there, through the whole next song thing. I think it was Myst afterwards. Then after that Tommy jumps out of the box, poor guy being stuffed in there that whole time! He said he was the only one small enough to fit inside. They did a couple of like random games. One I can remember was called Civilation, i've never even heard of it. It was cool though cause they has a choir going along with the orchestra. They did WOW as well, which didnt intrest me that much since I dont play but it was still cool with the shoir and stuff. They had a couple of people come up to play Frogger, again while the orchestra played. It was a little kid vs someone dressed as Mario. The little kid kicked that guys ass, and won a very expensive labtop for it. They also did Metal Of Honor and they said they felt it was inappropriate to play game footage, so they showed real pictures and such of that actual time in history. It a little depressing some of the images were like whoa. I think it was good though not to show the game clips. They did a song from FF but they said Square would not allow them show footage while they played, they did some for KH as well. They showed Disney clips for that. I wonder why it is they wouldnt allow it, oh well though. The big thing though was when they showed a video of Koji Kondo the man who made the music for Mario&Zelda(others) saying he wished he could be there. Tommy was like wait, wait *wishes* he could be there, He is here! And they brought Mr Kondo out, and everyone is on their feet. He comes out with Link and Zelda so you know whats coming next. Yup the music of The Legend of Zelda. It was so cool. That wouldnt be the last we saw of Mr. Kondo no he would later come out and actually play. He played some Mario stuff, no Zelda which made me a little sad but still. That I feel was like an honor just to see him actually playing. There was a 20 minute break before the second oart began. They had Martin Leung play I think he also played in the first half I dont remember. He got famous for playing the Mario theme blindfolded. He didnt however play blindfolded then, which was like well if thats how your going to hype him up he better damn well do that. He is very talented though, he has very very quick fingers. Really impressive to watch him play. They had this voice actor and honestly Im not sure if he doesx actual voice work or just sounds. Cuz they had him demostrate some stuff, like a baby. Various bug sounds, A really big monster doing diffrent things. He was also very talented but they kinda just over did it with the whole big monster doing this thing. Dee Baker was his name. What other games did they do. They did Advent Rising which I guess Tommy worked on, eh was all I had to say. Im kinda drawing a blank all a sudden. Oh they had the guy who is the voice of mario&luigi(the others) come out too. OMG YES! I forget when but at one point during the second half my bf was like, "dude omg there is Shigeru Miyamoto!" I was like are you kidding? He was no I would recoginze he's face anywhere. It was crazy, he was like I'd say maybe 4-5 rows ahead of us in the next section, which was 3. On the end on the isle was where Mr. Kondo sat. So it was as far as I know it was Mr. Kondo, his translater I believe then Mr. Miyamoto. They never said that Mr. Miyamoto was there but he was and we saw him and we were sitting in the same room as him. Unfreaking believeable. Those guys are like legends, it's insane. Whew! It was starting to get late and I thought they were going to end the show without doing Halo which would of Suprised me. I think a lot of people might of been thinking that too cuz people were shouting for Halo. So Tommy was like Ok lets give them Halo!! That was really cool too. The choir and stuff on their parts, really awesome. The whole orchestra parts everything. They played Sephiroth's theme One-Winged Angel. I am the biggest Rtard as I have heard that song a dozen times or more and I never realized they were saying "SEPH-RI-ROTH!" LoL. Yeah...Ok I gotta hurry this up im really late for work. Anyway I cant remember everything they played in the second half I think they ended the night with Martin Leung playing a medely of 10 FF songs, then he went on play some Mario. There was a meet and greet afterwards, but we couldnt stay and I was very disappointed. It was cuz it was nearly 11 when we got out and Bart stopped running at 12 and we had to walk all the way back to the Bart station. We made it back with only 6 minutes to spare and it was the last train of the night. I was so bummed though because it was like when are we ever going to get a chance to meet these people except at something like this. And we had to go home. It was so fun though and I would definetly go again and if you get a chance if it comes to where you are go and check it out. It's really something worth seeing. Ok thats long enough and Im sure theres a lot more but thats what I can think of right now and that and I gotta get out of here. hehe till next time!
VGL Is tonight and I'm pretty darned excitied. I will write about how it is maybe on Sunday or when I get the time. I'm working on a return letter to you Suzi, but it's hard to find time to just sit down and write! =( I wish you guys could hear the song it's actually pretty nice despite the uh odd lyrics. Mm and Snake is the man on a side note. http://i11.photobucket.com/albums/a170/little_lies/snake.jpg
What a thrill... With darkness and silence through the night What a thrill... I'm searching and I'll melt into you What a fear in my heart But you're so supreme!
"I give my life Not for honor, but for you **Snake Eater** In my time there'll be no one else Crime, it's the way I fly to you **Snake Eater** I'm still in a dream, Snake Eater!
Someday you go through the rain Someday you feed on a tree frog This ordeal, the trial to survive For the day we see new light!
I give my life Not for honor, but for you **Snake Eater** In my time there'll be no one else Crime, it's the way I fly to you **Snake Eater** I'm still in a dream, Snake Eater!"
some pics This is from a couple of weeks ago but I thought I'd post them anyway. Follow the cut ( Read more... ) Also I bought Cee and I tickets to go see Video Games Live. http://www.videogameslive.com/index.php?s=info He says I did it to make up for the fact that he's not going with me to go see Josh Groban. I know he wanted to go to this though so I got tickets. It's not till March 9th though. I'm excitied I can't wait! Then later that month it's the Josh Groban concert. That I am just so giddy about. Oh yess. Anyway thats it for me this time. "(I don't know why, what I'm doing what I'm doing) See, baby I, apologize For all the things that I've done that I've done See I've known that I've been a fool for far too long And baby you have it, I go around to wait, just come back to papa Please baby, baby won't you stay If you really love me then why are you leavin me I can't think, think about this crazy day I lose sleep just to daydream about you babyyyyyyyy I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, just to thinkin about you lately (crazy baby) I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, just to thinkin about you baby (I don't know what to do) I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, crazy, thinkin about you lately (crazy, crazy, crazy) I'm going crazy, crazy, (crazy, crazy) when I can't touch you Crazy, crazy (I'm going crazy) when I can't hold you Crazy, crazy, (I'm going crazy) when I can't see you again (Said I'm going crazy) (Said I'm going crazy) I've finally realized, that you are my true love And I had a lot of time to think, and you're all seem to keep thinking, To keep thinkin of, yeahhh And now I know I need you each and every day I can't live without you, so don't run away Baby you say that you love me, so why'd you leave me, why (why, why, why, why) I can't think, think about this crazy day I lose sleep just to daydream about you baby (I'm going crazy) I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, just thinkin about you lately (just to think) I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, just thinkin about you baby (I'm goin crazy, I'm going crazy) I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, crazy, thinkin about you lately I'm going crazy, crazy, (crazy, crazy)when i can't touch you (I'm going crazy) Crazy, crazy (crazy, crazy), when I can't hold you Crazy, crazy, when I can see again (if I can see you, if I can see you if I can see you, if I can see you) If I can see you, if I can see you again Then I would go, if I could see you again I'd go craeeae"
Current Mood: bored Current Music:K-Ci & Jojo "Crazy"
Today I had an interview!!! Yay you dont even know how excitied I am. Today I was suppose to go into work and I was having a serious mental war with the idea of going or not. I was already running late and I just cant stand that place. I had decided I was going to go and I was bummed majorly so. On my way to though I got a phone call and it was from one of the offices I sent my resume to. Which is like yay cuz my bf only sent them out yesterday. It was like someone decided to smile down on me today. I was so happy I nearly cried, no joke. They wanted to set up an interview and I was like, "Would it be possible to come in today?" Yeah and it was. So I ran home and got ready as quickly as I could. I was lucky I only needed to change otherwise it would of taken me awhile. My boyfriend was nice enough to take me over there. We had a little trouble at first finding it but we did. It's in Redwood City, and EA is literally right across the street. It's a very nice area. The office omg beautiful! So high tech too, I was like whoa. Digital x-ray in all the rooms, he does sleep dentistry all kinds of nice stuff. The Dr seemed very nice too. He seems like he's a busy man because he was telling me about himself and it just made my head spin. He said he would have one of his front office call me to set up a working interview so if that happens and goes well I could have a new job. Im just so nervous and excitied and all kinds of things. I really hope this works out. It made me happy even just to get an interview so I'm all uh happy! You should see me I am just grinning like a fool over here. I will keep you updated about how things go, keep your fingers crossed for me still though.
"I never thought I'd change my opinion again But you moved me in a way that I've never known You moved me in a way that I've never known
But straight away you just moved into position again You abused me in a way that I've never known You abused me in a way that I've never known
So break me shake me hate me take me over When the madness stops then you will be alone Just break me shake me hate me take me over When the madness stops then you will be alone
So your the kind that deals with the games in the mind Well you confuse me in a way that I've never known You confuse me in a way that I've never known
So break me shake me hate me take me over When the madness stops then you will be alone Just break me shake me hate me take me over When the madness stops then you will be alone
She says, "I can help you, but what do you say? Because it's not free baby, you have to pay." You just keep me contemplating, that your soul is slowly fading
God don't you know I live with a ton of regret? 'Cause I used to move you in a way that you've never known But then I accused you in a way that you've never known But you hurt me in a way that I've never known...
Break me shake me hate me take me over When the madness stops then you will be alone Just break me shake me hate me take me over When the madness stops then you will be alone
Listen, baby You'll be, you'll be alone
Break me shake me hate me take me make me Fake me break me shake me hate me take me Break me"
Current Mood: cheerful Current Music:Savage Garden "Break Me Shake Me"
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